After playing in the park, my son always gets some sleep. And I can take my time. I'm thinking what to do to improve my English. I 'd like to select some materialｓ to concentrate on.
When I went to a supermarket today, my son pointed to some apples and said apple! apple! very loudly in English. As my son is 100% Japanese and only 1year and 8 months old, I wonder if people around us think I am a supermom and I felt ashamed somehow. But anyway, I am very happy to feel my son is growing up little by little.
Yesterday, my son said Papa, bye bye. Last month, he said atta ishi!
He started to talk two words sometimes. I'm looking forward to talking with him in Japanese and English.
After I became a mother, I could have hardly studied English and Law and have lost my goals.
I thought about jacking in them many times.
Actually, I'm still wandering.
But I can't make up my mind because these goals are very important for me to live.
I would like to think about them in a positive way.
I'm expecting a baby around mid-December.
Watching some American dramas was the only chance to be exposed to English.
Now I feel it difficult to write even this simple diary.
My big goal, getting 900 score of TOEIC, has become a fantastic story now.
I have to significantly alter priority list.
As for English, I will continue to listen English of dramas and write a diary in English.
Someday I'd like to start studing English again.
Though I can't do anything I had to do before, my life is fulfilling somehow.
I sometimes feel anxious and feel like crying, but I also feel full of happiness.
I'd like to remember my studying and keep on doing it.
The cause was my husband's bossy attitude and requirement about business.
I realized I'd been very angry at him.
He was really worried that I looked sad and tired and sometimes cried.
So, I told him everything I'd felt about him.
He listened to me sincerely and we had a long conversation.
Then, I thought his attitude is unacceptable as a husband, but maybe acceptable as a boss. I remenbered my ex-boss who were very selfish (but he is a very good person) and I was trying to meet his requirement.
So, I desided to accept this situation.
I felt a pity for him that he asked me not to devorce him.
He is usually kind, honest and has great thick eyebrows and big nostril which are very cute. Wow, he might be perfect for me!(I'm sorry if I made you upset.)
The test of the university is coming next Sunday.
Today's title of my dairy is a line by the main character of Chi-ri-to-te-tin, a NHK drama. She often says this word.
She is sometimes very negative and has a inferiority complex.
As she is a person of great activity, she could meet good master, brothers and husband. Making many mistakes, she learned what she wanted to do.
This drama has been giving me a kind of healing and courage.
I will prepare for the test, saying “やっていけるんやろか”.
リチャード・W. ブラウン,ターシャ テューダー
I was impressed by Tasha's pretty dress and beautiful garden and house.
Then, I felt some message of my mother in law from the book.
She might think it's important to be yourself and love your life.
I was asking myself what I really want for a while.
But now, I know I have everything I want.
I sometimes feel upset that I can't do my work and studying because of my health. I often write about my health condition, maybe because I want to make an excuse, even though I don't have to give anyone excuses.
I think all I have to do is doing what I can do.
I walked 20 minutes to a cafe to study English and law today.
I was happy because I couldn't walk much these days. I'd like to walk as long as possible to restore my health.
I started watching HEIDI on TV again. I guess I'm a real otaku of HEIDI.
The great work makes me realize how happy I am and tells me how to feel every moment that everyone can cherish.
I am really grateful to the author and all people who were invloved in making the animation.